He dislike me feeling insecure. I know that. I promised not to feel that way but deep down inside I still feel the same way over and over again?
Every part of me knew that he is decent, caring, honest but the emotional bit of me just have to felt that it was "just the matter of time" before things went wrong. People like us, when we feel anxious, we will start looking for things 'going wrong'. And of course, sometimes we are looking for things that aren't there at all. (If the problem really exist, I would say probably say "It's girls instinct"). Being insecure can be really exhausting, your mind will question almost every single thing.
Sometimes, I felt inadequate and "not good enough" to be with him. I couldn't possibly understand what he sees in me. Worst still, I question why would he choose me to be his girlfriend. (I should nominate myself for the worst gf award). Seriously no use asking whether your partner really loves you. Because an insecure people will still feel insecure even when they are told they are being loved.
Everyone knows, insecurity only spoils relationship and the only one who is able to "kill" the insecurities is yourself.Until here, I should also really do myself a favor stop thinking about the unnecessary. After all, we live in life full of uncertainties right?
Its bed time, till then goodnight *smiles*