Days like these make me just wonder is there any point of struggling so hard to achieve something and to hold on something you think its right when others deny? Say it out loud "do not give up" but everytime you think that things are turning better, it turn out worst, this is the time when situation turns more shitty! At this point nearly nothing could cheer you up and the least you could hope for is people around you to be abit more understanding. And sincerely, my parents are not those type of person. They always have the perception of "Adults have more to think, more to trouble, more to care; and you kids have nothing to care about". So whenever Im facing shitty situation, you adults are hoping me to SMILE and SMILE and SMILE right? its so stupid. You're equally telling me to lie to myself. Why not give me drugs then? Ecstasy sounds nice. I dont demand much but leave me alone when you see me pulling that long face. Im not hoping for you to cheer me up or something. Im not that fortunate to even have someone doing that job!
Im really really tired.
Im tired of being the person you want me to be.
Im tired of lying to myself.
Im tired dreaming of something i could never achieve.
Im tired of hoping that you understands me.
I misses the one person who hear me cry and make me laugh over stupid jokes. I dont know what make this day so depressing but Im not having a good day, in a scale of 1 to 10 I would only rate it 2. Im seriously having a horrible day. Worst is, I couldnt even cry those problems out.
I guess no one lives a perfect life afterall.
