Live with no regrets.

I've gotten my SPM result, and I've nothing to say about it. My parents are happy with it and they din't say anything special about it also. What done, is done; i knew. 

Until yesterday, I realize life has been so easy on me until i dint have to pay effort to get anything I want. All I want, I'll get from dad or mum. Therefore, I hardly ever know whats is "no pain, no gain". But, Im not late, at least I knew it now. :)

carina.

For once i wanted to be mean.

..... but I've mine.

There's sometime, where I wonder to which extend i can be mean; for sometimes I wish I could just hurt you the way you hurt me, I knew, I'd bare in mind that I could not just hurt you the way you hurt me because you wouldn't even care for how I feel. Sometimes, I just hate myself  for caring so much for you. You could just treat someone you knew for months even better than treating me for being there beside you for so many years, the only reason for that is  I overestimated for how important I am to you, I just felt so silly, so devastating, so stupid like a clown.

One of my friend told me I'll not get mad for long, ohyess! She's just so right. In this case, you wont know who is it,  better dont let her get involve in this. I give up, I surrender, I loss to you and your words. No one will ever know how much effort I take in order to get mad of her, no one knows how difficult is it to get mad of her. " ONLY SHE KNOWS" the one who understands me most. She knows how heartbreaking I am, she knows how whats most heartbreaking, she knows, she knows, she just knows everything. :) Till here, most of you are expecting for me to cry right? Nope, i dint for this time. Cheer lar abit! :D Like what she'd said "Carina have grown up". 

Thats all for tonight, sweet dream everyone :) 

ps. I'll miss you after you've gone for a week, I'll find no one to talk to then. Oh, and buy me kangaroo lar, I dont mind if its a koala also :DD

carina.

The compasionate life

In this world of different nations, we human are creatures made for empathy and hope is necessary in any type of condition. We all know about the cruel and devastating earthquake and tsunami in Japan. Those aftershocks are rippling throughout the world. We do not need to experience in order to know how strong and how cruel can the water be, we have seen it. Those heartbreaking news are heartbreaking enough; but only with all this, I finally see how compasionate human can be, how a nation can really unite.

"Japan, China and South Korea agree to cooperate on nuclear safety" ,

 "China sends aid to Japan",

 "European nations offer aid to Japan", 

"Bulgaria sends humanitarian aid to Japan" 

"Malaysia sent a search and rescue team, with doctors and medical assistants to quake-hit Japan"

Those are news from the pass few days I collected from the star and some other internet resources. Remember the explosion from nuclear plant few days before? Okaay. Nuclear radiation are very strong and we all knew; 800 of the nuclear plant worker in Japan are asked to retreat into safety zone after knowing the radiation are increasing drastically, but there are 50 workers insisted to stay back to defend against nuclear catastrophe at the earthquake and tsunami damaged Fukushima. They all knew how dangerous it will be, how strong nuclear radiation can be, they die or either infected by radiation but still they insist to stay. "I salute them". We really should admire their spirit, where no money can buy you this kind of dedication. For those who lost their love ones and their home, there's still hope :)

ps. I'll unpate again, very soon; tonight...tonight :)

Love carina :)

Love the earth.

Love the earth as she loves you. Without the earth we're no where to be found. 

I sensed something's not right when I just stepped in the front door. I just knew it. I saw my parents, grandparents holding on to cell phones and the home cordless phone, those terrible feeling. How can I not ask why? They are just too busy making phone calls until they dont even bother to answer me. My maid told me that there's tsunami in Japan, Philipines, Indonesia and Hawaii. All the country listed just doesnt ring a bell . Finally my mum spoke, she said we had a relative at Tokyo and the communication just doesnt connect it to him, of course lar. Tsunami, affect it all! None of them realize the point. Seeing them walking up and down holding on phones just doesnt make me feel so good. Even worst, my mum doesnt let me to change the tv channel, only CNN. Seeing those live broadcast straight from Japan; amount of deaths, gosh! It make me feel so horrible, Im like sitting on pins and needles.  I just wish to help them, even tiny bit of help will do. I feel so bad when Im sitting here safely while some of them are facing their minutes near to death on the other part of the world. God bless them, allow them to walk out of horror safely, give them the luck to walk out the dark. Lets pray for the victims, pray for Japan. 

ps. hoping for my relative to call back, hearing that he's fine. God bless.

carina. 

handle with care..

The tittle, its a story book tittle... I found it while wasting time in popular. I wanted to get it but you know lar english story books are much more expansive compare to chinese ones, so I'll have to wait till my mum pay me allowance :D Okkaay, its another week down. And I don't know since when I started loving Friday so much. Maybe since I start going into college, because Friday is the only day where I can slack around without doing any homework and procrastinate it till saturday and sunday. Bare in mind. Im a procrastinator.
I'll upload photos later from this week in college. College is getting abit more interesting, i shall say. Ah, Sunway Ausmat is electing student council; who plans activities throughout the year. Hope so to make our college life abit more interesting. Speaking about that, I've been listening to students running for presidents. OMG, they are funny lar... One of them tend to name himself  "payung" umbrella.. sorry if i did insult, but who dont laugh when you hear that plus he keep on saying that he wanted to be our ears, mouth and even hands. hahah :D *I made up my mind on who to vote already* teehee :D
Test are all clashing next week. I've to really study hard, as a science student, making a big step to buisness line is really hard. Accounts, economics are all still stranger to me. I tried so hard studying for accounts and economics but really i still think memorising chemicals are much better. I got 1/9 for accounts and then 6/12 for economics. Im done mumbling here goes the photos :)

Still new sunway clothes :D They are huge on me, thanks to that guy there who say I look tall and advise me to take M. I shouldn't have listen to him.... Now I'll have to tuck in the oversized shirt otherwise I look like im wearing so sort of "uniform-pyjamas" hahah. Ow and do you notice the picture with my "Im-trying-to-open-wide-eyes" because we are trying to act like we got an electric shock, influenced by meiyi :D

My two neew friend in sunway. They're some very happy-go-lucky type of person, better way of saying a "laughing machine" they can laugh anytime, seriously anything :) Im so glad to know them, becaus I've been trying to hard to recognise some new friends but they are like "say-hi-and-then-forget-friend". yeap, shortform to describe. Of course they are not the only two i know , some of them are quite friendly too mainly get to know after working together for assignments :) just dint get to take picture with them. Thats all for this week :) adios!

carina.