Theoretically speaking, a month ago, this guy who walked in my life. Nah, he had been gradually wandering in my life for quite some time but in a different manner/status/relationship. Whatever lahh. I dint realize since when our relationship goes beyond friendship. Everyone around me was telling me how he treated me differently; my thoughts at that time "He care less for me of course he treat me differently". But slowly, as we text each other everyday, it became a routine. I'll check my phone if there's any message from him, I'll pay attention to what he does and say. Little little things, when you look at it, it meant nothing, but slowly it means a lot.Then, I would find myself actually waking up early and I staying back after classes to keep him accompany. But he would always push me away :(, and I always had to find excuses for myself to stay back when I could actually tell him "I wanna keep you accompany ma". He is just so insensible or guys are like that.
I really don't know why and how I fall for this guy when all he did was NOTHING and he definitely is not Nicholas Teo who smile and melt hearts. I just couldn't understand why and how. He will be awfully sad if he sees this. I kidd, kayy? heeee~ XD He has a weird wide smile but infectious, that would make u wanna smile back and laugh at that smile. CERTAIN TIMES ONLY LAHH. His action could SOMETIMES make you dont know to laugh or cry. He is a quiet person (I'm not really a noisy and talkative person either). It would be awkward sitting next to your close friend not talking. But with him, I felt comfortable even not talking. He is just weird/different/unique or special you call it, but its cool. I cannot deny this, he really tries to make you laugh and smile when you're with him :').
He brought in more emotions and feelings into my life. With him, I just dont know how should I feel. I wouldn't say my life turned into a complete mess in this one month time. No, infact. I felt happier eventho there are some sad and disappointing moments with him. Thats not the big deal. Thing is, even i felt disappointing and sad about him, I just felt like making him happy. Not like I dont wanna share my problems with him but I just like him being happy. He is different, everything is different with him. It doesnt occur to me that I want my exs to be happy, but only him. I mean... my exs are sweet, i want them to be happy too but it just feels different with them and with him. I think im crazy. Blahhhhh
I kinda forget whats my first impression towards him. They say he is funny, amazing in his own way and would remember him after years. But to be honest, at initial days, I would not pay so much attention to him. No doubt, he is a great friend (not going into detail, just know that he is a wonderful friend anyone would ask for). When im not trying to pay attention on him, thats when I would pay attention on him.
Alright so, one month, in between we had doubts and insecurities about each other. Its definitely not gonna be easy to maintain a relationship. But, I'm prepare :) and hopefully its the same for you <3 p="">
Carina xo'