As everyone was saying that they have changed in order to survive in such a hectic environment; I've also admitted that I've change. "我变了；我不再是被人捏在手心里，任人捏扁搓圆，为所欲为了!“ Something that I couldn't explain in english. I still remember once when my mum told me not to let someone led you around by nose, use your own judgement and do what you yourself think is right. I put it in mind so often but there is always exclusion for your close ones. Who knows if she appreciate your kindness or just take it as if it you're supposed to?
For all those years when you'll only come when you need me and pushes me away for the rest of the time no doubt we had happy moments together, building up memories together. The day you ignore me pushes me away because you knew someone new and started to stick with her, leaving me alone and only come to me the moment you needed help, you left me with only one choice. I had to be cruel in order not to cry for someone not worth for me to care, regardless how long we knew each other or how many happy moment we went through. I told myself not to give you another chance which is equivalent to not cry for you another time. I did it. I've cross the barrier from forgiving you another time. Im seriously not mad about you, I just couldnt find another reason to forgive you. Im really sorry my friend. Lesson to learnt, treat you friend sincerely, never ever take them for granted. Once a friendship is broken, its never easy to compensate.
carina.
Happy to see me alive blogging again huh? haha. Iam happy. Just came back from the Genting trip with college buddies, not all of them went cz its quite a last minute trip, I've no photo with me this time :( due the death of my "smart iphone" when I was halfway enjoying my trip such a mood breaker larh! But I enjoyed myself to the max and was mentally too tired that I slept throughout the day when I first get my foot step into the front door. haha.
I miss the cool breeze hitting my face, I miss the moment we gossip till midnight and had heavy eyebags the next morning, I miss the crazy laughing moments, I miss the moment we snap crazy photo and go syok sendiri with everyone starring at us. How good is it if time stops at that moment? As the trip came to an end, I realize my semester break is ending as well. Im back with a even more hectic life! welcome 3B. I'll run through everything with the "study hard play hard" principle. Leaving no regrets in my college life. HEH HEH!
Carina :)
